matt is home!!!!!!! he came for dins, nd hes just come up nd said night, nd that hes back properly now :-)
only bad thing is they will deffo shag tonight nd it will prob be loud :-S
x
Tuesday, 9 February 2010
Saturday, 6 February 2010
i like yours
got up well late today, nd even tho ive had loads of sleep still feel tired. think the pain killers are making me sleepy. eggs are a bit better today, nd its not hurting as much when i walk.
was good last night cos alex came over nd we had chinese with dad, had loads cos em changed her mind but dad had already ordered it lol. matt came nd picked em up, nd they went out for dinner and then went to stay in a hotel in oxford that used to be a prison, well romantic lol.
when alex came, dad shouted me down, nd i quickly took my tshirt off nd then walked down the stairs holding it, like i was about to put it on, nd then said hi nd stuff nd then just put it on. thought he would be lookn at my bod nd stuff, but dont think he looked that much. bt he did say he liked my tshirt, nd then i said 'i like yours' bt hed still got his jacket on so must have looked a well nob :-S
played on mario kart for like 2 hours, got a bit bored of it, bt alex was well in to it so didnt mind really. well felt like getn pissed, bt cant drink cos of the tablets. dad let alex have 1 beer, nd when he was clearing up, alex picked it up nd offered it to me, so had a bit of it. hes well kind. prob wont affect my eggs just by having a bit. kept gettn hard everytime his leg got within like 1cm of my leg lol. eggs must be gettn better, cos doodle keeps getn hard like before now.
he stayed until nearly 12, nd when his mum came over to get him she actually came in the house nd was talkn to dad for like 10 mins. we were tryn to listen bt couldnt really hear them.
was good last night cos alex came over nd we had chinese with dad, had loads cos em changed her mind but dad had already ordered it lol. matt came nd picked em up, nd they went out for dinner and then went to stay in a hotel in oxford that used to be a prison, well romantic lol.
when alex came, dad shouted me down, nd i quickly took my tshirt off nd then walked down the stairs holding it, like i was about to put it on, nd then said hi nd stuff nd then just put it on. thought he would be lookn at my bod nd stuff, but dont think he looked that much. bt he did say he liked my tshirt, nd then i said 'i like yours' bt hed still got his jacket on so must have looked a well nob :-S
played on mario kart for like 2 hours, got a bit bored of it, bt alex was well in to it so didnt mind really. well felt like getn pissed, bt cant drink cos of the tablets. dad let alex have 1 beer, nd when he was clearing up, alex picked it up nd offered it to me, so had a bit of it. hes well kind. prob wont affect my eggs just by having a bit. kept gettn hard everytime his leg got within like 1cm of my leg lol. eggs must be gettn better, cos doodle keeps getn hard like before now.
he stayed until nearly 12, nd when his mum came over to get him she actually came in the house nd was talkn to dad for like 10 mins. we were tryn to listen bt couldnt really hear them.
Thursday, 4 February 2010
sling
waste of time at the hospital yest :-( they thought the tests on the piss would show an infection bt nothing, so they dont know why it happened. just gotta keep takin the tablets which is well annoyn cos cant have milk so no cereal :-( even tho id got an appointment, kept me waiting ages, nd was getn well annoyed cos this skanky weird man kept lookn at me nd smiling. he propr looked like a murderer lol. not got to have an operation which is gd, but dad was well embarrassing askn the consultant stuff about it.
when we got back alex was sat on the steps waiting :-) was well sweet, nd i was sorta hobbling out of the car, nd i still have to hold it when i walk cos if it dangles even a bit its well more painful. he was laughin at me but not in a mean way. hes like 'u need a sling' nd when i got closer i pulled his scarf nd said 'im gonna use that'. he just smiled nd then dad said hello to him nd was askin if hed brought any homework for me.
well glad em was out, cos didnt want her saying anything. went into the kitchen nd got a drink, tryn to do everything with one hand, nd alex is like pissn himself nd hes walkn around the kitchen with his hand down his undies nd putn on a limp nd going 'ouch, arghh, ouch' propr takin the piss. he reckons jamie nd kaytee are together now, properly, nd sayin hes gonna move in with her family. sat at the table just messn around nd his foot touched my foot a bit, nd i sorta put my foot on his nd we both looked at each other for like 1 second bt then both looked away at the same time, nd didnt make eye contact nd it sorta went quiet nd it was a bit weird :-S nd then i started to get hard nd it was hurtn nd i moved my foot, bt think i moved it too quick cos it made him jump a bit. weird :-S
just talked about random stuff nd the weird silence sorta went, but then dad came in so we went up to my room. i laid on my bed nd well wanted him to lay or at least sit next to me, but he likes my swively chair. mental cos i well wanted that chair nd dad was whingn cos it was expensive, now i wish it would break so i could get rid of it.
not seen him online today, nd hes not txtd back about coming over on friday for chinese or pizza. hope im not stressn him out or doing too much gay stuff.
just sneaked into em and matts room to see if his stuff is still here, well thought he would have come back by now, bt he is prob waiting for her to say sorry, nd she will deffo think matt should be sayin sorry to her!! ffs mental.
when we got back alex was sat on the steps waiting :-) was well sweet, nd i was sorta hobbling out of the car, nd i still have to hold it when i walk cos if it dangles even a bit its well more painful. he was laughin at me but not in a mean way. hes like 'u need a sling' nd when i got closer i pulled his scarf nd said 'im gonna use that'. he just smiled nd then dad said hello to him nd was askin if hed brought any homework for me.
well glad em was out, cos didnt want her saying anything. went into the kitchen nd got a drink, tryn to do everything with one hand, nd alex is like pissn himself nd hes walkn around the kitchen with his hand down his undies nd putn on a limp nd going 'ouch, arghh, ouch' propr takin the piss. he reckons jamie nd kaytee are together now, properly, nd sayin hes gonna move in with her family. sat at the table just messn around nd his foot touched my foot a bit, nd i sorta put my foot on his nd we both looked at each other for like 1 second bt then both looked away at the same time, nd didnt make eye contact nd it sorta went quiet nd it was a bit weird :-S nd then i started to get hard nd it was hurtn nd i moved my foot, bt think i moved it too quick cos it made him jump a bit. weird :-S
just talked about random stuff nd the weird silence sorta went, but then dad came in so we went up to my room. i laid on my bed nd well wanted him to lay or at least sit next to me, but he likes my swively chair. mental cos i well wanted that chair nd dad was whingn cos it was expensive, now i wish it would break so i could get rid of it.
not seen him online today, nd hes not txtd back about coming over on friday for chinese or pizza. hope im not stressn him out or doing too much gay stuff.
just sneaked into em and matts room to see if his stuff is still here, well thought he would have come back by now, bt he is prob waiting for her to say sorry, nd she will deffo think matt should be sayin sorry to her!! ffs mental.
Wednesday, 3 February 2010
u ok?
feel well sick this mornin, just cos im a bit scared about today, if they tell me ive got to have an operation or something :-S
em made me pancakes this mornin, nd brough them upstairs to me. she hasnt said sorry or anything, but shes not been a twat anymore. dunno whats happening with her and matt, cos could hear them arguing on the phone last night, nd hes still not been back here.
didnt eat all of them, so flushed it down the toilet cos didnt want her to think im ungrateful. well hard to walk, have to hold them up cos its too painful nd they are too heavy to dangle :-S hope dad doesnt come in the room when im with the doctor, nd hope he doesnt start talkn about safe sex again :-(
jamie txt me last night nd put loads of stuff about kaytee, nd what hes been doin, nd at the end just put 'u ok?'. hes such a twat sometimes lol. i said i could die ffs, nd hes like 'can i have all ur stuff if u do?'. hes still in bicester, nd think its stressin him out, cos its mental to get to oxford now nd so hes like bored every night.
was on msn with alex last night nd said everyone has been askn about me, nd hes just said i got food poisoning, which is good cos didnt want him telln everyone. ive not told him everything that has happened with matt nd stuff, cos dont want him to get gayed out. he said he can come over if i want, nd im like 'yeah... ok if you want' bt really was thinking omg please please come over cos i need u so bad!!!! his mum is gonna drop him off tonight after dinner.
em made me pancakes this mornin, nd brough them upstairs to me. she hasnt said sorry or anything, but shes not been a twat anymore. dunno whats happening with her and matt, cos could hear them arguing on the phone last night, nd hes still not been back here.
didnt eat all of them, so flushed it down the toilet cos didnt want her to think im ungrateful. well hard to walk, have to hold them up cos its too painful nd they are too heavy to dangle :-S hope dad doesnt come in the room when im with the doctor, nd hope he doesnt start talkn about safe sex again :-(
jamie txt me last night nd put loads of stuff about kaytee, nd what hes been doin, nd at the end just put 'u ok?'. hes such a twat sometimes lol. i said i could die ffs, nd hes like 'can i have all ur stuff if u do?'. hes still in bicester, nd think its stressin him out, cos its mental to get to oxford now nd so hes like bored every night.
was on msn with alex last night nd said everyone has been askn about me, nd hes just said i got food poisoning, which is good cos didnt want him telln everyone. ive not told him everything that has happened with matt nd stuff, cos dont want him to get gayed out. he said he can come over if i want, nd im like 'yeah... ok if you want' bt really was thinking omg please please come over cos i need u so bad!!!! his mum is gonna drop him off tonight after dinner.
Monday, 1 February 2010
tennis ball
had the worst day ever yest :-( felt sick nd the pains in my eggs were even worse than before. after lunch i told matt what had happened again, nd at first he said not to worry, so i just laid on the sofa for a bit. but it was still hurtin nd they seemed to be gettn bigger so i told him again nd he said he would look if i wanted.
went up to my room nd i sat on the bed, nd he kneeled down, felt a bit nervous bt it was hurtn so much wasnt as awkward as before. nd i just as i was takn my jeans nd undies off, fuckn em walked straight in even tho the door was closed nd she promised she would always knock. she just looked nd we all sorta froze for a second, nd then she started shoutn and swearing nd calling me a fagot nd shoutn at matt that hes a 'confused freak' nd he tried to grab her to stop her running off but she pushed him back nd was shouting 'dad, dad, daaaaddddddd!!!!'. omg it was horrible. im tryn to pull my jeans up, nd get everything to fit inside my undies wich was gettn more and more impossible cos the right one mainly is like as big as a tennis ball.
dad came upstairs, nd i could hear em saying 'theyve been touching each other'. which is a total lie cos matt didnt touch it, nd he was fully dressed. em was crying a bit nd still shouting at us, nd omg i thought i was gonna die from embarrassment and from the pain. hes like 'we need to have a very serious talk' nd looked right at me nd matt. matt just said 'its nothing gay or weird' nd then hes like 'tell him josh' so i had to tell dad all about my eggs while my fuckn sister is listening, nd lookn at me like she wanted to kill me.
it was well horrible nd embarrassing. even tho dad obv believd me, its like he still looks at me weirdly. em hates me nd matt went to his mum last night. i thought when i said what had happened, it would be fine, bt em thinks ive done it on purpose, or she prolly thinks ive done rude stuff with matt.
no one spoke to me for like 3 hours, nd then at 7:20 the pain was so bad had to ask dad if he would phone the doctors for me. he phoned the nhs 24hr main number nd they told him to take me to a&e. had 5 ppl look at and touch my eggs now :-( nd only one of them had gloves on which is a bit bad. when the first proper doctors looked at it, his first wirds were 'bloody hell' nd it made me go all shivery :-S tf dad didnt come in the room when they were lookn at my doodle nd stuff. well dont want him to see it.
they gave me pain killers nd said i needed iv antibiotics which is a syringe i think. but then they changed their mind nd gave me painkillers and other tablets nd said i didnt have to stay the night. was there for like 4 hours, nd had to piss in a well tiny bottle, while a woman was in the room :-S they think ive got this thing called epididymitis but they arent sure. bet em nd dad think its an sti :-(
txtd alex nd put 'im in hospital :-(' but he didnt reply until this morning!!! grrrr. sent matt a text last night nd all i said was 'sorry' nd he wrote a well nice text back nd said im his lil bro nd stuff :-)
at home today, its still well sore but think the pain killers are helping a bit. nd if it gets any worse they told dad to phone 999. got to go to see the consultant urologist on wednesday, when theyve had time to test my piss nd stuff.
dad was goin to hull but hes cahnged his mind, nd he keeps coming to check on me, nd bringing me stuff. not allowed any milk tho cos of the tablets so cant have cocopops :-( just in bed cos its even too painful to walk around. em hasnt said anything to me, not even asked if im ok nd stuff.
went up to my room nd i sat on the bed, nd he kneeled down, felt a bit nervous bt it was hurtn so much wasnt as awkward as before. nd i just as i was takn my jeans nd undies off, fuckn em walked straight in even tho the door was closed nd she promised she would always knock. she just looked nd we all sorta froze for a second, nd then she started shoutn and swearing nd calling me a fagot nd shoutn at matt that hes a 'confused freak' nd he tried to grab her to stop her running off but she pushed him back nd was shouting 'dad, dad, daaaaddddddd!!!!'. omg it was horrible. im tryn to pull my jeans up, nd get everything to fit inside my undies wich was gettn more and more impossible cos the right one mainly is like as big as a tennis ball.
dad came upstairs, nd i could hear em saying 'theyve been touching each other'. which is a total lie cos matt didnt touch it, nd he was fully dressed. em was crying a bit nd still shouting at us, nd omg i thought i was gonna die from embarrassment and from the pain. hes like 'we need to have a very serious talk' nd looked right at me nd matt. matt just said 'its nothing gay or weird' nd then hes like 'tell him josh' so i had to tell dad all about my eggs while my fuckn sister is listening, nd lookn at me like she wanted to kill me.
it was well horrible nd embarrassing. even tho dad obv believd me, its like he still looks at me weirdly. em hates me nd matt went to his mum last night. i thought when i said what had happened, it would be fine, bt em thinks ive done it on purpose, or she prolly thinks ive done rude stuff with matt.
no one spoke to me for like 3 hours, nd then at 7:20 the pain was so bad had to ask dad if he would phone the doctors for me. he phoned the nhs 24hr main number nd they told him to take me to a&e. had 5 ppl look at and touch my eggs now :-( nd only one of them had gloves on which is a bit bad. when the first proper doctors looked at it, his first wirds were 'bloody hell' nd it made me go all shivery :-S tf dad didnt come in the room when they were lookn at my doodle nd stuff. well dont want him to see it.
they gave me pain killers nd said i needed iv antibiotics which is a syringe i think. but then they changed their mind nd gave me painkillers and other tablets nd said i didnt have to stay the night. was there for like 4 hours, nd had to piss in a well tiny bottle, while a woman was in the room :-S they think ive got this thing called epididymitis but they arent sure. bet em nd dad think its an sti :-(
txtd alex nd put 'im in hospital :-(' but he didnt reply until this morning!!! grrrr. sent matt a text last night nd all i said was 'sorry' nd he wrote a well nice text back nd said im his lil bro nd stuff :-)
at home today, its still well sore but think the pain killers are helping a bit. nd if it gets any worse they told dad to phone 999. got to go to see the consultant urologist on wednesday, when theyve had time to test my piss nd stuff.
dad was goin to hull but hes cahnged his mind, nd he keeps coming to check on me, nd bringing me stuff. not allowed any milk tho cos of the tablets so cant have cocopops :-( just in bed cos its even too painful to walk around. em hasnt said anything to me, not even asked if im ok nd stuff.
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