been sorta sextin with this guy called ben who sops knows and meeting him this afternoon. omg well scared!!! hes well fit, and has a propr fit bod. hes 18 and has got his own car nd he says well nice to stuff to me, nd sops has showed me some txts hes sent her about me, he propr likes me :)
been to brothers this morning and got my hair cut, got is shorter now and sorta messy nd a bit spikey. sops said i look hot :D hope ben thinks so. got a new red and white jw tshirt that ive been waiting to wear for ages. hope he things im fit. wearing my ripped full circle jeans with the massive rip on the bum :p hes gonna look i know he is.
we went to see jamie when we were walking back. he looks a bit cute in his uniform haha, he txt me as soon as we said bye nd hes like 'mate shes fit txt me her num' i didnt reply and like 5 mins later hes going 'whats her name im adding her on fb' hes well horny. hes living in a shared house in jericho now, its a propr dump but hes getn some ikea stuff in his room to make it nicer. i pissed in the toilet and didnt even wash my hands cos the sink looked like someone had shit in it. soooo dirty :/ hes not bothered tho nd its prob better than living with his mental family.
had my last counselling on tuesday, and ive told sops everything about dad and all the shit that happened even though dad told me to keep my private thoughts to myself. felt better to tell her and we had a well nice snuggle. even tho she knows im gay a bit she likes me to spoon her lol. shes stayed over again last night, and i still have to sleep downstairs and she has my bed. its mental cos i thought dad would be like tryn to make me share a bed with her lol. we always spoon before bed nd she tries to touch my doodle a bit lol. i propr love her loads shes like my best friend ever cos we are so close.
val keeps calling her my girlfriend and it doesnt even annoy me now cos im just like whatever. they are trying to make me not gay but theres nothing anyone can do :D
meeting ben at 2 and we are goin to starbucks, sops is coming for a bit so its not too weird but then shes gonna go after like half an hour.
SOOOO excited!!!! gotta get ready nd make sure i can do my hair this good after ive washed it :)
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71 comments:
Wow Josh!
Glad u r so happy now - all the very best for your first proper date and really hope things go well for you.
You sooo deserve it after all the heartbrake you've had.
Also it's nice to have a close friend in Sop - good to have her to talk to.
You'll find yor circle of friends will increase as time goes on.
So pleased your happy
Take care,
Hugs, Colin 2742
You're words will gladden many hearts Josh.
NEW POST!!!!!
But for the love of all that's holy, you better not make us wait a month for the follow-up to this post...
Well It makes me happy to hear you are doing better! You seem to have matured alot in a short time as well. I am glad for you! Best of luck with ben!
Good for you, buddy!
grate to hear from you again josh looks like things are better Ben sounds really nice just remember to
enjoy it cant seen much happening on first date . haven't a clue what this
spooning is well i do and its a bit weird cant be that . you really do need to have a chat with your dad unless it will only get worse you need to have an understanding with him .
Your first date! All the best Joshy! Have a good one!
It's great to see you blogging again Josh, specially as things seem to be going well for you. Where is Jamie working and how did he take you coming out?
Have a great time with Ben but don't feel pressured into doing anything you don't want to. Keep us up to date!
Great to hear from ya, Josh!
Even better to hear you're getting things back on track, got yourself proper friends and hopefully found yourself a nice guy!
Good luck for this afternoon! Let us know how it goes...
... don't let anyone think they can change you cause it ain't gonna work ... all of us here know that ... itm, good luck w ben have a great time and many more w him :)
"had my last counselling on tuesday"! Does this mean you are cured? lol ;-) Did you sort the counsellor out so he/she insisted on booking your dad in for a course of therapy?
Jamie has a uniform! A flak jacket? or at least anti-stab vest?
So then, is Ben hotter than even Matt? We should be told this Josh. :-)
Good man :D Sounds like a hell of an improvement. I hope it goes well with Ben.
It's good to read that you're so happy ^^ you deserve it
Hope everything goes well with Ben.
Sounds like its going to be a good day ;) what are you planning on doing for the day (or what did you do as i doubt you'll get this in time lol)
Hope everything goes well and ignor your family if they are being dicks, dont let them get to you :)
And its nice that you have someone who you feel so comfortable with, most people dont have that, so personally i think its worth the odd comment or two lol. It's not lioke you're lying to anyone.
Glad to hear from you in so long haha Jack xx
Good to hear from you again. I really hope Ben and you hit it off. It sounds as though it has a really good chance.
Please don't leave us in suspense for weeks. You've aroused our interest- if nothing else!!
Joshie,
That is great great great!!! I am so happy to hear that! Have a good time I know it will go great. Please let us know how it goes. We miss hearing from you.
Gary in Texas
Nice to hear from you Josh. This Ben guy sounds interesting and the ripped jeans should get his attention lol. And your dad still has fantasies of you being str8; at least you are not being sent to some religious nuts for a 'pray out the gay' session. Lots of guys in school to check out too. bfn - Wayne :)
all rite Josh , see it's not all doom n gloom. Sure Ben will like ya , just keep your hands to ur self [ for a while anyway ;) ]
D'awwww. Sops sounds like a great freind. Every gay needs a girl firend that's what I always say.
Good luck with that guy. He seems more mature than you, y'know. With the whole car thing and all. Haha. Well. Stay safe ;)!
its really nice to read your posts again, hope your date goes well
Josh.... go and get it
:)
Dont take this date with Ben too seriously, just enjoy yourself and the time you spend with him.
Dont expect too much from Ben, but don't miss any opportunity that might arise.
Hope you have fun... and sex...
Hope it all went well Josh
Really glad that you are back here with some good news.
Hugs
omg that makes me happy to read! i remember my first time getting into it like that with a guy. it was damn exhilarating thats for sure. She knows ur gay a bit? wht do u mean a bit? does she think u are only a little gay? please do explain lol
Well now you actually sound happy! What a great turn around! I hoped you would reach this point sooner rather than later, and here you are.
I'm sure the date with Ben will be great. There's no questions as to who's hot for who this time!
And I see your circle of friends getting larger and larger.
Peace <3
Jay
You simply MUST tell us how your date went(no pressure, haha).
Love you.
Davey
P.S. So very good to hear from you again.
--Davey
I'm happy for you, Josh. It's nice to read that things are improving so much for you. Hope all goes well with Ben. It's only a matter of time before the usual suspects ask you what make of car he drives. xx
Yeah baby, finally back in business.
Please Josh go back to posting like you used to, we miss you and its always good to hear about those tiny bits of happiness in your life.
Glad that you have returned back after a mega long time of not posting. Really chuffed that things are going good now. Shame that we don't know what happened for a long time but understand you don't want to talk about it if it makes you feel crap.
YEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEESSSSSSSSSSSS
YOUR BACK, AND YOUR HAPPY MWHAAAHAHAHAH
thanks josh, good to hear things are working out for you now, and i go enjoy your blog!
have fun, get plenty of sex!!
Josh - glad all is well dude, hope things go well with ben.
tc
Like they have been saying in that anti-bullying campaign, it really does "get better" as you get a bit older and the people around you mature and adolescence starts to wear off a bit. Most teenage dickheads turn into human beings at some point.
You do have to tell your dad who you really are, though, because that pill has to be swallowed one way or another. But it can wait.
Every boy needs a girlfriend, and every gay boy needs a "fag-hag". Mine (married, 2 kids)is probably my closest lifelong friend. When my heart finally opened, it was to her first.
Enjoy your new life and freedom but for chrissake, drop us a line more often.
do we hear the sound of V plates being ripped up in north oxford?
certainly hope so...
well done mate - it's all coming together nicely for you at last!
Really good to hear from you Josh, sounds like things are improving. Hope all goes well with Ben. You are really fortunate having Sops as a friend and if she wants to touch your doodle you should occasionally let her you may enjoy it.
Hugs Carter
Hey Josh, good to see you again! Funny that after all the pain he gave you, Jamie is now begging you for info and you kept him dangling. Hope u enjoyed the date. Write soon!
what a coincidence after days cheking your blog for your resurrection and today youre back!good for me, i had to post a comm you are a young horny man go tiger with this other ben, please don´t depray us.
JOSHIE FINALLY HAS HIS FIRST DATE!!!
WOOOT!
I'm glad things seem to be going well.
We're all rooting for you, keep us posted.
Happy, happy for josh. You have the right outlook on all this.
Hey! Really happy about this. You sound alot happier! Let us know what happened!
Matt
I am so glad that you have posted at last and that things are looking up for you. Sops certainly seems to be the best thing to happen to you in quite some time. What was this counseling stuff you had to go through though? Good luck on your date I hope all goes well and try to write more often please.
To G-Star. Spooning is when two people lie next to each other, both on their sides and both facing the same way. They then hug and bend their legs a bit so they fit together like spoons.
hey josh.
its great to hear from you(its been to lon) you seem happy now and im glad after all the shit you had. hope the date went well and dont leave it so long next time :)
You deserve this, dude. Sophie sounds great, and I really hope it all works out with this Ben character. Seriously, all the best Josh.
You see how diligent we are in checking this blog everyday? Don't leave us hanging.
Haircuts at Brothers start at nearly £30.
Who paid for that ?
Your horrid daddy who doesn't understand you ?
Wow Josh finally an update!! I knew you wouldn't forget you loyal followers and friends.
So is Ben as hot as my boyfriend Matt?
Condoms, condoms, condoms, if you're taking it up your ass or sticking it in someone else, always use condoms, we want you around to enjoy all the boys for a long time to come.
You seem really happy now...it does get better.
Love, your friend Mike in America
hey josh-
very glad to hear from you. by now you've had your date. can you give some details about ben? like, on a scale from 1-10, 1 being danny devito and 10 being... well, different for everyone (apologies to anyone with mr. devito's swimsuit calendar). i hope it went well. and i hope you are doing well and that things continue to improve for you. take care and don't leave us hanging too long.
peace and love- jeff
im glad youre writing again
So good to hear from you again and best wishes for your first real date.Blind dates are usually organised by people who love you & want you to be happy. They think that they are doing you a favour & sometimes it is a good experience, sometimes not. Just be yourself & if something great happens we will all be so happy for you.If it is not to be this time -put it down to experience. Josh you are only young and believe me mate, you will soon find the right guy. The fact that you have all of us bloggers who care for you is proof that you have & can be friends with a lot of people.Please don't let it be too long before we here from you again -TELL US WHAT HAPPENS! Which ever way it goes we will stll be here and will share in your emotions,high or low. If we didn't care you would have no comments.
you are on your way to some real sex.---I am very happy for you lil dude. Tell us how your date goes. You already knows he likes you so since the date was actually hours ago I know it went well. I bet u didn't know I can see the future. I see many blow jobs in Bens car coming your way . I'm jealous.
Josh don't leave us hanging...........how was the date with Ben?
your friend,
Mike in America
I haven't been happier to read something in ages and especially when it comes to reading " they're trying to make me not gay but there is nothing anyone can do "
Good for you ! So glad to see you are happy again and have at least a little bit set into your new identity. We are all super proud of you and I am thrilled that you are writing again. No matter what you do you need to keep writing !
GO JOSH!!!!!!!
WE WANT UPDATES JOSH!
Hey Josh! Good Luck! Hope you can fill us in on how it went! (hopefully not a month wait) :D.
things sure seem to be turning around. it does get better. good for you, Josh.
hope you had a nice time
Great to hear from you. Things sound so much better. It's scary coming out but the relief can be so great.
JOSH don't leave us waiting for 3 bloody weeks again! We wanna know how the date went!
JOSHIE.. FOR THE LOVE OF BIG BEAUTIFUL SMOOTH DELICIOUS COCKS.. WILL YOU PLEASE GIVE US AN UPDATE ON YOUR DATE? PLEASE?!
UPDATES PLEASE : ) How did the date go?
just as I predicted--- no account of the big Ben date. Thid blog is a little annoying that way. You get into it , you fall in love with Josh,--you worry about him,--you can't waite to hear more and you especially look forward to hearing about stuff like his first big dfate in detail and what do we get ? A big fat fucking zero
hurry up and tell us the gossip!
c'mon we want to hear about your first blow job,--gettin' and givin'-----And wow is your dad gonna flip out when some hot lil dude start drivin u around. He's gonna know then and there his lil boy is takin' it it the ass. The fun is about to start Josh.
so, did you or did you not shag with ben?
Josh? I need you! Please post something!
excited to things are going good... its great to hear people be happy... there's not enough of it in the world...
:]
Hey Anon 29 October 2010 18:06 and all the others - GET YOUR OWN BLOG if you don't like this one. Leave Josh alone. He has a life to live. He doesn't have to spend all his time filling in the holes in yours.
Hey, you sound like the kinda lad I'd love to meet. It's great getting horny sharing coffee and I got pre cum just reading your stuff. Love to meet you and if you like me we could cut the bullshit and head straight for the bed. We could rip each others clothes off and make mad passionate love all night x x
Hey, josh, in your tips you say you like Amazon Vouchers and you'd be a good boy. I'd pay you cash if you'd be a bad boy with me.lol
Really hope that this can be the start of you being able to live the life you want Josh, take care and have fun. james
Josh - you are a cute looking kid - I'd love to put my tongue up your a...
Joshy I know you gotta read these before they can be seen, so its good for you to know you still have followers that check your page regularly.
We still love ya joshie!
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